Temporary Savior

Temporary savior please make me numb. Make my days’ worth it under the sun. Bring your laughs and bring your fun because, once indulged, there’ll be more to come. Open my mind and close my eyes. Peel my layers and tell me lies. Spread your joy throughout my veins. Use your magic to ease my pains. Embed yourself within my brain. An addict I am not, but from you I cannot refrain. You make me feel alive, an extrovert I will be. With you by my side, my dreams I exceed. With you by my side, no friend I will need. When you are in hand, you elicit the real me. Bring me fun don’t bring me shame. Temporary savior engulf me with joy not flames. I know you are malicious, but I ignore your ploy. Bring me peace and turn down the noise. Temporary savior please don’t cause me pain. Taking you is a better way than piercing my brain. Temporary savior you know your name. Change my life and I’ll never be the same. Popular amongst us all, your lies you spread. Took you once, now you’re in my head. Days without you are days of dread. Give me life, if I don’t wound up dead. Temporary savior I’m blacking out. My alacrity grows faint there’s no turning back now. Through my blood your poison sprouts. That of consciousness, I’m fading out. Temporary savior bring me peace. Ease the minds of the ones that’ll mourn for me. Open their eyes so they can truly see that what you did was so wrong for me. I lied to their faces. I told them I’d stop. They flipped through my pages and figured your plot. They witnessed the changes, when I was beginning to rot. Unsubtly exchanges, I got that a lot. No, I’m not addicted. I just need you, you see. Temporary savior you have enlighten me. Took me on a journey to where I’ve never been before. I no longer feel alienated, that’s why I need you more and more. You’ve made cool, you’ve made me fun, but you’ve limited my days under the magnificent sun. My body grows weak, what have you done to me? Temporary savior please let me be. I seek out my friends, but they run from me. I’m alone once again, I need company. A monstrosity in my reflection, what’s become of me? Temporary please come to me. I need you one last time so I can rest comfortably. Please listen carefully, I’m about to say my final speech. I don’t have my much time I can hardly breathe. These words are precious, it’s getting harder for me. Temporary savior you vulturous beast. You have taken my life from me. Temporary savior I curse thy. I hope this opens the eyes of all those who were dear to me. You are not a friend, you are a foe. If only I had known sooner, I would’ve let you go.

Resources that are available to those of you who feel this way or seeking help for a friend:

National Suicide Prevention Hotline-1800-273-8255

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